While Sebastian is in the middle of the gym doing a standard bodyweight exercise, he suddenly feels a small pop in his neck. He reaches up and winces, but it isn't until he gets home that the pain really intensifies.
At the time, it resulted in two weeks of sick leave from high school, and even though it has been seven years, he remembers the incident clearly. In the years that followed, Sebastian suddenly had to learn to live with recurring headaches. He can manage the milder tension headaches with over-the-counter medication, but he also experiences worse headaches at times where he needs to lie down. "During the more serious headache attacks, I feel like I'm facing a tsunami without being able to move. I can feel a severe pain coming on, and I'm just forced to wait for it to arrive," Sebastian explains. But even though he has learned more over the years about what can trigger that unpleasant pain in the back of his head, the lack of understanding from others is still hard to deal with.
"The tension headache usually settles in my neck and slowly creeps up into the back of my head."
Like for many other young people, social life involves going out on the weekend and having beers with friends, but for Sebastian, it has often been associated with a lot of discomfort. A poor sitting position can immediately trigger a headache, so meeting for pizza on the grass in a park or sitting on a barstool without a backrest is a no-go. This can sometimes rule out certain social events. "And I can't drink beer at all. Neither with nor without alcohol," he says. But when Sebastian tries to explain that he would rather not go out because it always triggers his headache, he doesn't really feel understood. Sometimes a cheeky remark is even thrown in on the fly. "There are many who don't take it seriously, and that's not great. I think they assume I just want to avoid a hangover and that they get headaches too. But I always have a headache for about 48 hours afterward, so it's a high price to pay," he says. This also means there aren't many people Sebastian talks to about his headaches, as he often feels like he has to defend himself.
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Previously, he had a tendency to neglect his headaches and just grit his teeth, but now he has started to say no more often and opt out of the things he knows will cause unpleasant pain in the back of his head. "When I actually started including people and told them how long I'd been dealing with it, they had a hard time understanding why it was suddenly a problem now when I'd managed it fine until now," he explains, emphasizing that he wishes he had been more open about it from the start.
For a long time, Sebastian had trouble making sense of his headaches, which made them hard to accept, but he has actively worked to change that. "I also think it's hard for others to understand and acknowledge it if you don't do it yourself," he says. He has therefore tried to map out his various triggers, which has helped him a great deal. It has worked particularly well for him to continuously challenge some of the things he had noted as triggers, not by ruling them out 100%, but by isolating them and testing them over time.
"For example, for five years I thought I couldn't tolerate wine and that exercise could trigger it. But after testing it, I found out that it's only beer I can't tolerate, and that only a few exercises trigger the headache," he says. He describes with a happy voice how it gives him a sense of victory and a form of hope for getting closer to a normal life than what he has been used to. "It helps you feel like you're in control of your own life, instead of just having some ailment that comes and controls it. It's still hard when my old friends don't quite understand it, but I hope it will be easier in new friendships because I understand and acknowledge it more myself," he says.
Sebastian has just packed up his life in Northern Jutland and headed for Odense, where he will be studying for his master's degree, but even though it's exciting to meet new people, it's also something he dreads. "I've been thinking about how I'm going to handle the social aspect, and I'm not super thrilled about it, as I don't like having this conversation with people," he says, and continues: "Fortunately, there are mostly girls on my new course, and I have better experience with them taking it more seriously and understanding it to a greater extent than my male friends."
So, I’ve actually been thinking that I want to try being more open about it.” Sebastian explains that it has become easier to live with the headache and be open about it now that he understands it better and has learned to accept it in a different way.
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